Uranus Opposition stands for change, revolution, and non conformity. Read on for a snippet of my personal story, where my Uranus Opposition was a catalyst for upheaval and transformation.

It’s 4am on Friday.
The birds are singing softly and there’s a light mist in the air as the rain of the last 5 days subsides. As I pour a steaming hot cup of mushroom coffee, I’m deep in contemplation about my story.

Who am I? 
How did I get here?
What was the path that took me from small town retail owner to international online success?

Uranus Opposition is A Catalyst

As I look back on the last 10 years, of course, my husband’s infamous statement, “You’re just not that nice anymore,” rings in my ears.

I deeply wanted to be the nice girl.
I valued approval, anyone’s approval, over all else.
I was driven to please, often at the risk of my own happiness.

I’d been doing it all my life.  It was ingrained in me.
If you’re quiet enough, you won’t be noticed.
Don’t celebrate your accomplishments, because you’ll make someone else feel bad.
Pride comes before a fall, you know.
Whatever you do, don’t outshine your sister.

Beyond that, I thought we were a team.
I thought he loved me enough that I didn’t have to be nice if I didn’t want to be 😳
I wanted a pass on my bad behaviour from the one person who loved me enough to see past the mask. 

Instead, I got a wake-up call.
“You’re just not that nice anymore.”

Why wasn’t I being nice?
I wasn’t being nice because I was deeply unhappy in my life.
I was wearing a mask.
I’d put it on when I went out the door, smile for everyone, go through the motions all day, driven by this need to quiet the voice of my soul that kept getting louder.

By the time I got home, I was so desperate to remove the mask, that I unleashed my mean streak like a beast, on the one person it was safe to do so with. 

I resented all of the people needing me.
I resented having to be nice when my soul was crying out for more.
I hated myself every time I donned the mask to make it through another day.
I was soul drained and I could hear her trying to get my attention.

“You’re done here,”
“It’s ok to want more.”
“It’s ok to be different.”
“It’s ok to shine.”
“Let go of your need to control.”
“It’s time to do what you came here to do.”

I now realize that the catalyst for all of this upheaval in my life was my Uranus opposition.

Enter Uranus Opposition

May 14th, 2014.
I was 42 years old.
I opened my eyes, rolled over, and told Pete I was closing the store.
Another statement that would forever change our lives.

Up until that moment, I don’t think I’d even entertained the idea so this idea seemed out of the blue and almost ludicrous.
Yet there it was. “I need to close my business.
I have no idea what I’ll do or how we’ll survive without my income but I know that I need to do this.”

I’m still in awe that all he said was, “Ok.”
I can’t imagine I’d have been so gracious. 
I mean, I hope I would have but remember, I wasn’t that nice anymore! 🤣

Uranus is the Awakener.
He stands for change, revolution, non conformity.
An astrologer once told me that whatever needs to be released in your life will drop in an instant when Uranus comes around.

And drop it did.

I had no idea the monstrosity of that decision.
I figured I’d take a break, heal from burnout and get a job.
Life would go on. I’d traverse a familiar path, and do what was expected of me.

Nothing could have been further from the truth.
These last 10 years have been a journey deep into the crevices of my being.
I’ve laughed, I’ve cried, I’ve hated myself and loved myself through it.

Through it all, I’ve realized that my highest calling is not to be nice.
It’s not to fit in.
It’s not to maintain the status quo.
And this has been uncomfortable.

It would have been so much easier to stay where I was.
That’s what we do right?  We stay in it because to change it changes everything, for everyone, and we don’t like to make anyone else uncomfortable or inconvenience anyone, so we keep on keeping on, day in and day out. For years.

But I couldn’t do that.
My soul would not allow it. 

Why Are You Here?

Somehow she knew that I’m here to have an impact.
I’m here to contribute and to inspire others to step into their own purpose.
I’m here to break new ground and pave the way for others.

I’m not here to be nice.

Do you know why you’re here?
Are you using your gifts or are you doing what everyone expects of you so that they’re not inconvenienced by the amount of space you take up as you change?

If your soul has been crying, it’s time.
You’re ready for more.

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